If you have any type of insecure, homophobic tendencies, this blog post is not for you.
You’ve been warned.
Ok, so y’all know I’m slightly crazy, but I can’t help but to think that there’s someone at my gym that is trying to reach out and connect with me (like THAT), but just can’t take that step. Why? There are many reasons that I will touch, kind of, below. But being that I’m awkward and anxious as fuck and have slight social anxiety, I just ignore it all and go about my merry way.
All he has to do is say the word and I’ll be like “let’s go” (hand clapping and all). But I won’t be the one to say it first. Just trying to avoid any awkward moments that may occur, because you know…not trying to be that gay guy that hits on everyone because he thinks they are gay. But I’ve been getting some interesting vibes from him.
The first day I noticed him, we made some awkward eye contact in the locker room. Then later that week, there was an awkward “I can’t really hear you but I’m done with this so you can have it” moment. Then another day the same week you asked me to spot you rather than the other people who were around (even though there was only like 3 other people around). Maybe it was because I was the closest person. But why me? I just want to work out and go about my merry way without any social interaction with strangers. Now I’m forced to stand over you with my junk over your face. Staring down at your toned chest and shoulder skin because god forbid you wear a regular ass shirt to the fucking gym. Just let me do me, by my lonesome. That’s how I like to work out.
I had my “Equality” shirt on that day. Let’s just say it wasn’t not planned. (I told yall I’m crazy). I tend to evaluate people to see how they react to certain things. But it’s all passive. So by wearing that shirt, I evaluate how people react to me and since he asked me to spot him, I feel like he supports equality (I know, crazy). He doesn’t seem like a hater off the bat, but maybe he was just really focused on getting his reps in and it didn’t matter what I was wearing and he just really needed a spotter.
But see I’m petty, because if I needed a spotter but the closest person to me was wearing a “Trump” shirt, I’d go to the next person
Now, I feel like I’m just projecting what I want him to be onto him. But I can’t help but feel like I’m being stared at in the locker room by him. Especially when I’m looking out my peripheral and see him facing towards me while I’m getting dressed, rather than facing towards the lockers on the wall. Maybe he’s just weird like that. Who knows?
I know, I know. This all sounds crazy, and yes I’m slightly crazy and yes I know that someone I know who works out at the same gym at the same time as me will most likely see this (no it’s not y’all, so don’t ask me about this haha), but whatever (actually, I’m going to need y’all to be chill if you do read this, LOL).
But IDK, maybe I’m being irrational and it’s all in my head. I try to shut the world out when I’m working out so I don’t really know what’s going on. I just like to do my set, dance a little in the middle, and then do my next set. But he seemed to be everywhere I was the last two days we were working out at the same time.
I went to another part of the gym each time because my anxiety got the best of me, and I kept staring, and then I just didn’t want to be “that guy”. Gay or not, I hate being “that guy”. Who knows, he probably isn’t even paying me any attention, but I’ve been working out for so many years and have not had a hunch about another person in the gym like this at all.
If he’s just trying to find a workout partner, I. AM. NOT. THE. ONE. lol
I guess we’ll just wait and see what happens…